1. 28 July 2010 · 04:05 AM ·

    today, i realized that i have less than 2 months with my parents before they leave for china. and yonah’s leaving me for training 2 days after my parents leave TT-TT i don’t know how im going to survive the next 365+ days taking care of myself, the house, work, research, and school all at the same time. Lord be with me..

    my 21st birthday is approaching, but im more anxious than excited.. the term ‘legal’ frightens me.. its just a fancy packaging word for new responsibilities and expectations. i feel like a freshman in high school — not a college student.. i still watch kiddie shows, pick out certain vegetables at dinner table, hide behind my dad when my mom yells at me, cover my eyes during kissing scenes, and feel so oblivious to so many evil things in the world.

    now i wont even have my parents to run to yelling ‘abba~~~ umma~~’ or have yonah as a unofficial therapist to listen to what ive bottled inside me for few days. now i fully understand what it means to appreciate the people you love and care for — when they are still around.